you are not alone

After attending the talk on Autism yesterday, I got pretty disturbed. Although the talk was boring, it stirred up so much of hidden emotions. Parent's of children with special needs, will tell you similar stories.

We all try very hard to face life, strong. Many a times, we are in denial or will try to escape the reality of the situation. And all it takes is a moment of memory to lapse back into that void. A dark tunnel, that is suffocating with painful memories. And trust me getting out of that void, isn't easy. For me it takes a lot  of prayer, alone time and some tears. Once I am out, I try very hard to lock that void and throw away the key.
It's been nine years now, that the hubs and I carry this burden of autism 24/7. The autism is a burden, but our son is a blessing. With him we have experienced and learn so much. He is such a darling, but the autism in him hinders him from being the best he can be.

I know that my struggles in life are just too many, but the good Lord has promised us, that He would never test us beyond our limit. And yes, He has equipt me with precious helpers. My darling husband, who has put up with so much with me and my side effects from the autism.

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This picture, was such a cute snapshot. 

It reminds me of my dearest hubby, who has always been by my side throughout everything. 

Another sweetheart is my elder son, who understands his brother and helps me so much. He is such a wonderful sibling support for younger brother, Ivan. With these two my side and all the unseen angels, I know I am loved. With that I can face tomorrow afresh.